This long…

Its been a real long time(20+ years) and hate as I may to admit it - I still haven’t managed to. I am sorry to all those who I’ve let down - which includes primarily only myself. The walk ahead is beset with all the difficulties that the path this far was. Nevertheless time will be a quick healer. Might be I will survive, might be I will make that critical difference, might be I will just be a brick on a giant wall. But this far…I really havent made it. Holding back a few thoughts… I dont have the resolve of a Santiago to stand there and wait for the fish…